It has been quite sometime since I have made a post. And this time I haven't had the promptings of my brother or sister to do so. This time it is me. I have had the prompting for a while, but as you can see, a lack of motivation.
What exactly is motivation? Where does it come from? How does one acquire it? I could go to dictionary.com and find a definition. I could search the web for quotes. I could even ask everyone around me how to get it. The problem with that is motivation is different for everyone. What may spark my motivation, may not spark yours; and vice versa.
A year ago I had the motivation to lose weight. I had a goal in mid so I didn't have to pay a higher insurance rate. The goal was halted because of an injury. I have come to the conclusion that when my motivation becomes too intense, my body breaks down.
A year and a half ago, I had the motivation to get my bachelors degree completed. So far, that motivation has been doing just fine for me. If I continue to do well, then I will graduate in April of 2013.
Lately, my motivation has been lost. I have had a sense of defeat. It is self sabotage. I am all too familiar with this cozy little place of self sabotage. I have been there many times. Yet, I always seem to find the light at the end of the tunnel and pull myself up. I think it has been a comfortable place for me to go when I feel trapped or extremely overwhelmed. They know me there; I have a place saved.
Today I have realized a lot of things. First of all, I live in a rut. Everything I do is rote. It is time to change things up and do a different plan of attack. Second, I need to make a plan. Third, I need to live that plan. Fourth, I need to be accountable to someone besides myself. Fifth, I need to branch out and make myself more vulnerable. I need to try new things, experience life and not feel bad if I don't succeed. Sixth, I need to put those that matter most in my life, first in my life. Time to get back to that which makes me whole.
By this, I mean my God, my family, and myself. It is time to manage out the things that don't make me feel good. I carry way too much stress to make my life content. I want to be content and happy. Time to become motivated and kick self sabotage to the curb.
Friends, there is a higher power. We may call it something different. But I know you all believe in something more divine than ourselves. Right now, I seek that higher power. In order to become motivated, I will need that higher power's intervention.
Here's my question for you. What can you do today to be come motivated to improve yourself and kick self sabotage to the curb? Aren't you worth it? I know I am; and so are you. My challenge to you it to look deep into your soul, find your worth and let loose the demons. You are beautiful, friends. Let your light so shine so that others may see.
Much love to you all.
