Over the course of the last few years, I shied away from looking for someone to be my soul mate. I had goals; finish college, buy a house, do whatever I want. In a sense be a little selfish for a bit. I graduated a year ago next week. Wow! Time flies when you are having fun. Looked all over the place for a house and couldn't find one. Decided to do online dating to look for a soul mate. Oh my goodness! I found one...and a house! Ha...exciting.
I had spent my whole life waiting to find this soul mate. Someone who loved me for me. Told me I was beautiful. Said that I was their rock and made them feel at ease. How they couldn't wait for our future together. That they have never felt something like this in their life before. It was perfect. I had never been happier, more complete, more loved, more at peace, more joy than in those three months. Until tonight.
I love this man with all of my soul. He was so good to my heart. He was so good to it, that he let it go. Tonight I am more at peace, more complete, more loved, more happy than I was a month ago. I finally let go.
An old Suzy Boggus song says, "Letting go. There's nothing in her way now. Letting go. There's room enough to fly. And even though, she spent her whole life waiting. It's never easy. Letting go." I spent my whole life waiting for the fairy tale I had just a few months ago. Tonight the prince couldn't tell this princess what she needed to hear. Whether it was to be a friend or to be more. The princess had to do the hardest thing ever; say "I love you" one last time. The prince stated he knew that. And the princess had to say "goodbye".
This princess has spent her whole life waiting. Waiting for someone to pick her up off her feet. And even though, I will spend my whole life waiting...it's never easy; letting go.
Peace be with you. Not as the world giveth you as I give. Let not your heart be troubled nor let be afraid. God Bless You All-even my fairy tale prince.
